Something

Sometimes you can see it's there but you can't do anything about it. Giving a little lit but it's not glowing nor sparkling. Then you start to wonder whether it's the right thing to try to lit it at the first place. Ended up you doubt a little and forgets about it. But there's a feeling or voice inside you pushing you to give another try. You think, "What has gotten into me? I'm in deep shit." It's indirectly luring you again. The feeling is killing you. Nonetheless you gave another try. Why not? It doesn't cost you your everything. It seems like it gave one spark. But it faded off, like less than a second. "Great. Just forget about it. Things never seem to be smooth and in the way I want in life anyway." Just a lovely wonderful chapter from elsewhere passing by and could not be found in your book.

I give thanks to God for the current life I'm having. It seems all well and smooth. But it's too well......