Thinking about what I'll be going through in the days to come, I really miss my dad's encouraging words..
I took the tears of his unappreciated when I got my PMR results.
Or was I disappointed in myself until I didn't realise I made him proud?
I thought I could have done better than getting 6As out of 7.
On the phone...
Me : Dad, can call mom pick me up now? I got my results.
Dad : Okay. How many As you got ahh?
Me : 6As....
It was then I heard my dad crying on the phone.
Why did I not appreciate that?
Me : Please ask mom to pick me up.
Dad : (in his shaking tone) Okay.
My dad was bedridden at that time.
I've regretted so much. Really so much.
Why did I take things for granted at that time?
Last year I got my SPM results..
I really hoped my dad could see them.
How I long for my dad's praise.
I showed my mom and brother. They were just smiling.
I know they were happy for me. But I couldn't see how much they were happy for me.
Now I know how much my dad's tears means to me.
What bout the days to come? STPM?
So stressed. I told my mom and bro that I'm actually stressed bout going to Form 6.
They told me to go to college.
Thought I don't want to?
I want to keep the money aside for better usage.
Sigh. Dad... I really miss you. To list down what I've regret for not doing is a long list.
Please preserve me Father in heaven above.
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